Growing up where I did, and having what happened to me is all sad and that. I haven’t always been the lifestyle I live now. This is all because I had that dream of my puppy love boyfriend marring me, settling down and have some kids of our own. Well, that is all good and what so ever, yet that isn’t what happened. In all honesty that isn’t what I am writing about. You see, growing up I had a friend that I considered t6o be my best friend of all the friends I did have, which wasn’t many. She was pretty in my eyes back then, but not in the wrong way of thinking, cause I was to busy being in my puppy love.
Upon the occurrences that happened in my life that presume to form and change my feelings of marriage, children and all those things. I swayed to the other side. Well you see my friend growing up discovered this about me, and shied away from me and our friendship. Yes. I am a lesbian. and I guess she is homophobic. I have never thought of her in the wrong manner and have the up most respect for her, just because she was my best friend growing up.
What really gets me is she is a wonderful person, and I imagine a terrific mother also, of course I don’t know if I will ever have a friendship with her again. I just wish she wasn’t so homophobic of me cause that would just be wrong for me to think or try anything with her.
You see I’m going on another trip of mine and going to be back in the home state and city. I would love to just sit and visit with her, just as friends cause that is all we can ever be is friends.
Written for the friendship I once had and would like to have again. Even if our friendship isn’t to continue then I do wish to say, “Thank You Wendy Dutel for being my friend back then, now, and forever.”